Be Still

Where I have I been? Good question. In denial, I believe. Maybe confusion. Patiently waiting? Can I pass it off as patiently waiting? Didn't think so.Busyness has been my blindfold and comfort, of sorts, as I avoid dealing with the situation at hand. I truly need to get away, all alone, in a very barren location with only my Bible and an iPod of … [Read more...]

Waiting & Listening

God, I pray that this post will be an encouragement and challenge to those who read and not a display of pride. It's all for you, it's not about me. Amen.Can I tell you that worship has never been sweeter for me? I've always needed the praise and worship time. I love the message, but I definitely make it a priority not to miss the music part of … [Read more...]

Revelation

The prayer of my heart...I truly have no direction. I do not want what is of me, but that which will glorify God the most. I heard this on the radio on my short drive home last week. I just caught the chorus, and it resonated in me. I came straight home and downloaded it. I keep praying the words.Revelation ~Third DayMy life has led me down the … [Read more...]

Road Trip

I can't say I've received an answers in the past days, but I'm further down the road, and I'm travelling with Him.Following my husband and Chris's notes from over a week ago, I've drawn near to God like never before. I've been sick enough before that I literally had to lean against a wall to stay up, and I've also had to lay on the ground because I … [Read more...]

Identity Crisis

I feel as if I'm in a holding pattern of sorts. I've much recovered from the emotional nature of my last post (thank you, God for my emotional breakdown in the bathroom during which I spied the birth control pills and the sudden realization you gave me that those were the emotional trigger. side note - this does not mean we're having more children, … [Read more...]

“Giving Up What Was Never Ours”

I'm using the title of Chapter 8 in Lysa TerKeurst's book, What Happens When Women Say Yes to God. Yes, I've been in and out of this book for a while. Do give me some credit for having read it twice (and some parts 4 and 5 times).One of the things I love about re-reading a book (since I'm an English teacher, let me tell you that you should always … [Read more...]

Lamentations follow-up

Hudson's using his arm again - YEA!I've really examined what happened that day and how awful I felt. In our discussion of the chapter over Obedience, we discussed what is at the heart, the very cause, of our sinful behavior. You have to find the heart of the matter to really seek God and make change.My conclusion: I was so upset with Hudson and the … [Read more...]

Lamentations

Yesterday felt like I was in the land of Lamentations. By 3:00 all I could do was hang on this verse and pray like mad for the day to be over: 21 Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: 22 Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. 23 They are new every morning; great is your … [Read more...]

Priorities (this got long on me…)

I have a perfectly reasonable reason (how's that for redundant?) for not posting. I've been doing an online book/Bible study, What Happens When Women Say Yes to God, with some ladies. After I share my thoughts with them via an email, I don't feel like typing the same thoughts again in a post, and it just feels inappropriate and less personal to … [Read more...]

Swine Flu & God

Okay, the title might be a little deceiving. If you haven't heard about this one, well, you're hiding under a rock. Or, maybe you just don't watch TV, and congratulations on that. I just found out about it two days ago because of talk at school.This morning I was having my time with God when Jenna started coughing. The first couple, I shrugged off, … [Read more...]