And she looks like this:
You were afraid I was going to show you the other little lady, weren’t you. Oh my, no way, Jose. But right after my mammogram, while the technician went to ask the radiologist if I needed an ultrasound (standard procedure on ‘a lump’), I snapped a quick picture of “the machine.” Forgive the slight blurriness – it was darkish but I didn’t want to break out the flash because who takes a picture of a mammogram machine?
I can happily report that all the talk of “squishing” and the discomfort and even pain = none of that. Cold hands, yes. And, when I did dare to look at that part of me all displayed and squished, well, I was quite impressed. (probably more than you ever wanted to know…but there’s more!) Interesting tidbit #1: in mammography images, your breasts should be mirror images of one another. Where there is dense matter on one, there should be the same on the opposite. Who knew? But I sure hope I get to see the images, I like “find the differences” games.
The radiologist confirmed we need to follow with an ultrasound, so I sported my gown down a different hallway. Ultrasound has trouble locating lump. Seems ‘she’ falls between my ribs when lying on my back. Sitting up proved a better viewing. tidbit #2: A cyst is obvious as a dark spot because it’s filled with fluid. I saw my rib, my lung, and some breast tissue, but no dark spot, so, no cyst. Interesting tidbit #3: my breasts are “lumpy, fibrous, and dense” (and now we know each other all the better, but refrain from feeling what ‘lumpy, fibrous, and dense’ feels like for comparison, please 😉 ).
So, while it seems to sound good that she couldn’t really find anything, I don’t have any answers. I was lead to believe (should have listened better) that the radiologist would come out and talk to me about it, perhaps let me see it, but no such luck. “The doctor should call you tomorrow. But, well, tomorrow is Friday, and many offices close early, so maybe Monday. Don’t spend your weekend worrying if you don’t hear tomorrow.” All I could think was, “Worry? Really? No reason to worry!”
This, by the way, makes me think of a passage: