I love a new year. New opportunities. It’s like a blank slate that I get to fill. Fortunately, I’ve always had TWO, maybe THREE, new year’s in the year – New Year’s official, the beginning of summer as the school year ends and our family schedule changes, and the beginning of the school year with return to schedules.
I’m excited about 2011. I think this describes it best: Brooke Snow “Winter.” She so eloquently worded what I have been searching for how to describe the season I’m walking into.
#1 We’re building our first (and last) home! While there is some pressure knowing that we can’t “just sell it” if we don’t like it, I’m choosing to look at all the excitement. And, hey, if I don’t like something, I just adjust. I mean, we’ve lived in 5 places since we’ve been married, and all of them have worked fine. The perks: country, which means I can have a garden, and I think I’ll get some chickens – yep, you read right! We’re going as basic as we can while still realizing we have the rest of our lives here, so it includes a room for photography! I’ll also have a real pantry (right now the food is in a cabinet) AND a laundry room (as opposed to freezing or melting out in the garage).
#2 I will be “just” a wife and mom in just 6 shorts months. And yes, I’m keeping photography (of course, I have a room specifically for it!). Wife and mom will be my primary focus for the first time in, well, ever! The challenge here will be for me to be purposeful with how I fill my time: not using it as a way to take MORE sessions, but to use it so that mommy doesn’t work once she picks up the kids (other than the occasional evening session that we line out with the family calendar, not to exceed two per week and likely just one). This has never before been a desire of my heart, but God changes our passions and desires to follow His plan, so I’m eagerly anticipating it!
#4 Decluttering. Yes, as we move I’ll be literally getting rid of “stuff,” but that also includes my busyness. I’ve been SO convicted here. I have too much on my plate. I hate to say “no” to anything or anyone, and as a result I’ve overcommitted. I don’t enjoy most things I’m doing because I’m always worried about how I’ll make it to the next thing or how late I’ll be up trying to get it all done. It hurts because I know I have to say “no” to someone and will likely (in my view) hurt them as a result. I’m revisiting Can I Have and Do it All, Please and this time I’m not looking for how to HAVE and DO it ALL, but looking for direction on balance. I’m also going to read (slowly and relish it) Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World. I think my friend loaned me this book 4 years ago because she saw a need in my life. I still have it, but now I’m really going to read more than the first chapter. I’m SOOOO excited, and incredibly apprehensive!
My theme verse for this year is, “But the Lord answered her, ‘Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one this is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her.” Luke 10:41-42 ESV. I’m praying for the wisdom to recognize the things that cause me to be anxious and troubled, cast them off, and cling to ‘the good portion.’ I’m looking forward to a year of growing closer to God and my family.